I Hate Myselfie Book Review

I am finally here to review Shane Dawson’s book!
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Honestly, this was probably the book I have been most excited to read so far. Mainly because I love Shane Dawson. He is one of the first YouTubers that I started to watch religiously back in 2011 and since then I have just grown to love him more and more.
So obviously when I found out he was writing a book I was so excited. Shane has always been a very open person online about his life so when I found out this book had stories he had never told on the internet before I was interested.
This is the first YouTuber book that I have read that is specifically about the YouTuber’s life and not something else which I really appreciated because I was definitely interested in learning a lot more about Shane, after watching his videos for about five years how could I not?
Shane’s book is not necessarily an autobiography though it is a “collection of essays” which basically means that each chapter tells a different story about something that happened in his life and a lot of these stories are before YouTube so it was really interesting to learn more about what life was like for Shane before he became internet famous.
In the book there is a mix between serious and funny stories and from the style of the writing you can definitely tell that Shane wrote it, as even within the serious chapters he was able to throw a joke in to lighten the mood. I definitely found myself laughing out loud a few times at some of his jokes.
I really think that this book let’s you see the person Shane really is rather than the personality that you see in his YouTube videos. I know that since he started posting daily on his “Shane” channel he has become a lot more real and less of a character but in the book he really opens up about some personal things that he went through.
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In his “My Strange Addictions” chapter, Shane talks about how he gets addicted to things really easily and talks about just how unhealthy his addiction to Splenda got. And this made me think back to when Shane used to vlog, he had mentioned in a few of his vlogs how much he loved Splenda and it was ridiculous but you never really knew how far it went because that was the part he didn’t show in his vlog. There’s so much that we don’t know that happens behind the camera and I really think that people should remember that when they watch YouTubers.
In other chapters of the book Shane talks about his high school/teenager experiences, his struggles with his body image, and he also talks about some of his experiences after he started YouTube as a job. I have to admit that some of the chapters in the book do get quite emotional, there is a chapter where Shane talks about his grandmother which I thought was really sweet. I almost cried, it was so emotional.
Shane also made a short film about one of the chapters in his book, and I watched that before I read the actual chapter. But I really enjoyed the short film he made about it. It was really fun to see his writing come to life like that and the chapter and the short film are basically identical so I would recommend you guys check that out if you are unsure about getting the book.

I think I saw a post by Shane a while ago saying he wanted to make another short film based on the “Astral Projection” chapter in his book which I personally would really enjoy. I mean it’s one thing to imagine it in your own head but to see the author’s vision come to life is even better. And with a YouTuber you know it’s their exact vision and not an adaptation like big feature films based on books.
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Another thing that I liked about the book was that before each chapter, there was an illustration by one of Shane’s fans. There was a note at the start of the book from Shane saying that he sent some fans excerpts from the book and they would draw an illustration to go along with it. I thought this was a really creative way to have his fans be a part of his book. Even if it was just the lucky few. Their art was really good and Shane also included a short description about each artist on the back of the illustration which I thought was really nice.
I really hope Shane writes another book like this, this is only a small part of his life and if his story-time videos and this book are anything to go by, I know that he has a lot more crazy adventures ahead and I will be so happy to follow him on these adventures for as long as he is on YouTube and sharing his life with us.
So yeah, I think that that is everything I have to say about Shane’s book. I know I could have probably said a lot more but honestly, I just loved it. I loved every part of it and I know I’m biased because I really like Shane anyway but honestly if you have ever wanted to learn more about the YouTuber behind the camera this book is the perfect example.

Goodbye Elena – The Vampire Diaries Season 6 Finale

I cried. A lot.
So, I’ve never really been one to get overly emotional about fictional characters. The last time I properly cried about someone leaving a show was Finn from Glee and we all know that was based on real life events.
But this? I never expected to cry. It turns out Elena Gilbert meant more to me than I thought.
But before I get into the sad part of the episode let’s talk about all the other tragic things that happened in Mystic Falls this week shall we?
First of all Kai comes back. Which is never a good thing. I have hated him ever since I first saw him. He’s not a good guy and you know he’s kind of a sociopath. Kind of? I mean he’s a full-on sociopath.
Not only did he stab his sister in the stomach but he also caused the death of every person who was at the wedding. Nice.
I mean Jo was tragic enough because she was pregnant and Alaric was finally going to be happy so I am so not happy about the fact that Jo is gone, I mean Alaric almost killed himself over it. Which would have been awful, and for some reason Kai kept him alive. Well, no he probably kept Alaric alive because that would pain him more than being dead. Screw you Kai.
Alaric, ready to give up on his life…luckily there were no bullets in the gun
The only other people Kai kept alive were the vampires because he wasn’t that interested in them and he did something to Elena, she’s not dead but she’s not alive either…so Damon takes her to the hospital to find out what’s up. The only thing left for Kai to do after interrupting the wedding was to kill himself, that way all of the Gemini coven dies along with him. Lovely.
And if that wasn’t bad enough Kai doesn’t even really die, he was given Lily’s blood so he was coming back a vampire-witch hybrid. Which is a thing now. And Lily would do anything if it meant she got her friends back which is also not good because they are also hybrids…
Meanwhile, Stefan, Enzo, and Caroline go to find Lily who is surrounded by what look like storage containers looking for said friends. Yet they don’t seem to be anywhere. Did Kai lie to her? Did he leave her friends in the prison world? What will happen?
Frantic Lily, looking for her friends
I think it’s really terrible how Stefan and Damon’s mother doesn’t even really care about her sons. I just feel like she’s a little crazy and that maybe they should have tried to get her back into the prison world…
At least Lily was the least of their troubles so far…
So Damon is in the hospital and he’s in Elena’s head, he wants to spend time with her but all she wants is for him to tell her what’s going on and what’s wrong. But he doesn’t know what to say. The rest of the world is chaotic right now and it’s best Elena not know…
Damon also called Bonnie to tell her what was up with Elena and Bonnie was going to go to meet him until she found the tape recorder. Kai had left her a message, he didn’t just kill Bonnie when he had a chance. Which was weird because he should have after she sent him to the prison world, but she couldn’t figure out why he left her alive…until she watched the tape recorder back.
Kai’s tape recorder
Kai had linked her life with Elena’s. Elena would only wake up if Bonnie died. Great. Fab. Thanks, Kai…
Back at the wedding scene…Tyler and Liv are lying together and both of them are pretty close to dying. Tyler explains to Liv that Kai had killed himself and that the rest of the coven was going to follow after him which is not good. Liv, however, notices that it’s a full moon which means that Tyler could still get out of this alive, all he had to do was trigger his werewolf curse.
Which is not something Tyler wants to do he’s tried so hard not to trigger his curse since he came back human. But Liv tells him that she wants him to take this chance that she’s giving him, after all she saved him from triggering the curse before and she told him not to waste his chance. So Tyler decides to take his chance, he tells Liv he loves her one more time, kisses her and then kills her to trigger his werewolf curse.
That sounded much harsher than it actually was, but Liv knew she was going to die anyway and if she could do it to help Tyler live…well that’s just so sweet. It breaks my heart though because I really liked Liv. I’m so sad that she had to go.
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So Tyler runs off into the woods with his curse and manages to call Matt before it happens to tell him to warn all other vampires that Tyler could be after them.
Luckily for us the only person Tyler went after was Kai. So Kai was bit by a werewolf which means he was going to die. At least that was the hope. Kai has caused so much trouble in this season he just needs to be gone.
So Kai goes to Damon to find out what’s happening. He didn’t even know about werewolves until one came and bit him. Damon tells him there’s a cure he can take but before that, he needs to know what Kai did to Elena. So Kai tells him. This puts Damon in an awful position. Does he kill Bonnie to have the love of his life? Or does he let Bonnie live and be without Elena for the next fifty/sixty years?
Meanwhile, Kai decides to leave Damon to think about the situation and Damon finally decides to tell Elena what’s up.
Of course, Elena is not happy about the situation and she wonders what Damon is going to do. I mean could he really just kill Bonnie? Would be so heartless to do such a thing? We hope not. We beg not.
Kai ends up back at the site of the wedding massacre where Bonnie finds him, she demands him to undo the spell and find a loophole, anything to get Elena back to herself. Since Kai died earlier the spell became permanent and it’s not like he cares since he’s dying from the werewolf bite.
He’s weak and so Bonnie thinks she can kill him…until Kai figures out that he can just absorb the magic from the werewolf bite because he’s a siphoner of magic. God damn it, Kai, just die already.
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Kai takes the magic and uses it to levitate Bonnie and have her crash into a wall and fall, she ends up with a collapsed lung and is dying, and this is when Damon arrives.
Kai tells Damon that now he can get what he wants, Bonnie would die and he could be with Elena again and it wouldn’t even be Damon’s fault that Bonnie died, it would be on Kai’s hands. Damon hesitates and goes to see Bonnie one last time before deciding to leave.
And we are all feeling the betrayal as Damon walks away. HOW CAN HE JUST LET BONNIE DIE LIKE THAT. I mean that’s the initial reaction but then I thought he had a plan. He wasn’t just going to leave Bonnie there, there was a reason he left…
Damon before he leaves Bonnie
This gives Kai time to provide a monologue about how he thought Damon would have hesitated more or at least “flipped a coin” to decide whether Bonnie lived or not. This gives Damon enough time to come from behind Kai and take his head clean off. Yes. Finally. He’s gone.
Damon rushes over and heals Bonnie. Of course he wasn’t going to leave Bonnie. He can’t. Not after everything they went through. Plus it would be so unfair of him to kill Bonnie at all. After everything Bonnie has done for everyone on the show she does not deserve to die.
I mean I feel like sometimes we forget how much Bonnie has sacrificed for everyone on this show but trust me, I have not.
So once everyone has had time to catch up on everything and they are all together again, they decide to lay Elena to rest, at least for a little while. So in turn, each of them go and say goodbye to Elena through vampire mind control, never fully understood how that worked but I was so grateful for it at this time.
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Bonnie is the first to say goodbye to Elena and Elena is very accepting of the situation. It’s so much better to allow them both to live out their lives, separately rather than have Bonnie die just to have Elena back. Besides, a lot of them would see Elena again as they are immortal. Elena asks Bonnie and Caroline to both keep journals of their lives so when she comes back she can read them and act like she was there with them.
It’s so heart-breaking to see because you know Elena and Bonnie won’t ever see each other again…it’s so sad. And before Bonnie goes, Elena asks her to do the feather levitation one more time. It was so heart-warming to see because it brought back those season one feels when Bonnie first told Elena she was a witch. And I just loved it so much.
Bonnie and Elena saying goodbye
Then there was Matt, who Elena hopes will stay in the police force and become someone who can protect others. He’s probably one of the strongest characters on the show considering he’s been able to survive six seasons as a human. So Elena is sure he will be fine and that there will be a strong chance of them seeing each other again…which is so sweet.
Matt and Elena saying goodbye
Then there was Alaric, and Elena told him to be strong and to not give up. It was going to take him a long time to get through all of this grief but he deserves to have a good life too. I mean, he was also given his life back after being a vampire for so long that he deserves to live it. He just needs time to heal after everything that happened.
Elena comforting Alaric
After Alaric, Jeremy comes back, because how could he miss saying goodbye to his sister. He also promises her that he will live a life doing exactly what he loves. There’s was a short goodbye but it was all that was needed.
Elena and Jeremy embracing for the last time
And then Tyler, Elena tells Tyler that he should embrace his werewolf curse and that he should leave town to discover who he could really be. The last time Tyler was a werewolf he dreaded it but Elena thinks he could go far if he embraced it. This causes Tyler to storm out…will he come back? Probably not. I heard that Michael Trevino was also leaving the show which is also sad but I don’t think I’ll miss him as much. He was away for a long time in the last few seasons so it felt like he was already gone…
Elena and Tyler
Then it came around to Stefan’s turn. This was also quite sad. I mean Elena and Stefan had been through so much together and they were even in love at the beginning. However they know they’ll see each other again and Elena hopes that Stefan can be happy in whatever life he chooses for himself. So their goodbye was really sweet.
Elena and Stefan
Last but not least…Damon.
Damon tells Elena he was planning on desiccating while he waited for Elena. It would be a lot better to wait for her that way rather than living without her but she told him not to shut down. He needed to live his life while she was gone too. Elena wanted him to be happy while she was gone because she knew they’d see each other again. And they have one last dance…this is when I really started crying. I mean after everything they have been through and then they were dancing and it was just…too much for me.
Damon and Elena’s last kiss ❤
As this is happening Stefan decides to go to Caroline’s and tell her that he will wait for her. She said she wasn’t ready to be with him so Stefan told her that he’d wait until she was ready. And if that isn’t the most heart-warming thing you’ve ever heard I don’t know what is. I mean I want Steroline to be a thing so bad at this point I was surprised Caroline didn’t just accept him right then there. But I guess we have to wait to see if that happens.
So Damon and Stefan decide that the best place to leave Elena to rest is in the Salvatore family crypt and Bonnie will seal with it a spell so that they can keep her safe until it’s her time to come back. Until then…we just have to see what happens.
Stefan telling Caroline he’ll wait for her
The last thing we see in the episode is Lily and Enzo discovering a storage unit that Kai had cloaked. Obviously it wasn’t cloaked anymore because Kai had died and the spell was broken, and inside were Lily’s “family”. Great. Not just one vampire-witch hybrid but about seven? I don’t know exactly how many of them but there are quite a few. I know Lily is happy but I can’t see this being good for anyone else. Plus Enzo has kind of agreed to be part of Lily’s family too which isn’t good either. I mean I understand why he did but I don’t want Enzo to go to the dark side…
And with that. It was over.
Honestly I was a wreck after it. Like I didn’t want Elena to go and the way she said goodbye to everyone was just so heart-breaking. I’m going to miss her so much, even if she did get annoying sometimes I just…can’t imagine the show without her. It doesn’t help Nina Dobrev has been posting all of these throwback photos lately…
But whatever Nina goes onto do after the show I wish her all the best. She has been an amazing part of this show for so long and I just can’t wait to see what she does next. It’s not even just Elena that I will miss, Nina has played a lot of characters on the show, and I will miss all of that too,
I just think it’ll be so weird without her but I am looking forward to following the rest of the characters and all they have to offer.
And I think that’s everything I have to say. I don’t really know what else to say about it, I mean despite all of the terrible things that happened in this episode I really think it was a nice send-off for Elena and I am so glad they didn’t just kill her off because that would have been terrible.
So yeah, please feel free to let me know what you thought of Elena leaving the Vampire Diaries and if you will miss her. And until the next blog post, I bid you farewell 🙂 [Still have no real sign off for my blog posts haha]

~ Courtney x

Nashville Season 3 Finale

I am hysterical.
WHY ARE THEY DOING THIS TO US?!
I don’t know why but it took this show way too long to get good. At least for me. Season one was kind of boring and season two got more interesting but this season…things blew up completely and I am both really happy and really devastated about that.
So if you don’t know what Nashville is about it’s basically about country singers in Nashville. Which sounds boring but trust me, it can get very dramatic and things aren’t always as they seem. I mean I never really knew so much drama could come out of something like this but oh my God. It’s just…so much. I feel like I need to start giving details so if you don’t want spoilers now would be a good time to stop reading…
So I think the best place to start is Deacon. He’s been having dreams about dying. Um…not good. He is freaking out because he is finally about to get his liver transplant but what if something goes wrong?
Now, this whole season I have been trying to remain positive about the whole Deacon thing. I mean things haven’t been great for him since the start of the show and I just need him to be happy and healthy and live! He finally has the family he has always wanted with Rayna and I really don’t want to see him go.
I am so glad his sister agreed to give him the liver transplant. I mean I really don’t like Deacon’s sister because she is a real bitch but if she is going to save Deacon’s life I can deal with her. Which is how I feel everyone feels about her. Like, I know it’s not just me.
Oh so you know…Deacon and his sister go into surgery and everyone is feeling really positive that everything is going to turn out okay but…just like Deacon’s dream something is wrong a heart monitor is dropping and I’m freaking the fuck out. DEACON CANNOT DIE OKAY. I refuse to let that be a thing. If he dies I’ll actually be so upset and I refuse to believe it.
I mean as it was happening I had this idea, what if it wasn’t Deacon’s heart monitor that went down but his sister’s? Which is also terrible but because she isn’t a main character it wouldn’t be as devastating. I know that makes me sound like a horrible person, but that’s just how I feel. I don’t want to lose Deacon.
Plus I don’t even know how Maddie would feel if Deacon died. Like that would just be heart-breaking.
Deacon and Rayna at the hospital
But that’s not the only problem that Rayna’s family have right now. There’s also Teddy’s situation.
To be honest, for the longest time I didn’t think a lot about Teddy. I thought he was always a nice guy and always tried to do the right thing and then as the show went on I began to feel really sorry for him. His life was just not going anywhere and he got involved with Jeff Fordham – which is NEVER a good idea and ended up in some trouble.
And from there he just kept spiralling and eventually he was caught up in a scheme and was facing some time in prison which, as the mayor is not a good thing. So he agrees to work undercover until he finds out he would be implicating Rayna’s sister and Rayna and her record label. So Teddy decides to stop working undercover and ends up getting arrested.
It was horrible because he asked if he could have a few days to explain himself to Rayna and his daughters but he wasn’t allowed that and he was just whisked off…
I mean I feel so bad for him. It makes me really sad he got in this dark place. And I don’t even know what’s going to happen when Rayna and the girls actually find out. I mean they have been so busy with Deacon’s situation that they haven’t really seen much of Teddy. I just hope he can get out of the situation.
Teddy getting arrested…
Moving on to someone who is also going through something traumatic… Juliette. It really does just feel like everyone is going through some kind of crisis in this episode. But Juliette is seriously going through something and I’m really worried about her. And more so, I am worried about Avery and the baby.
I mean I kind of thought Juliette would be a better mother to her daughter after what happened between her and her mother, but things didn’t exactly go that way. Instead, it seems Juliette has a severe case of Postpartum Depression.
Since the start of the show Juliette has been one of my favourite characters but recently she hasn’t been and it’s because she’s going through this really bad phase and she’s become a monster. She doesn’t care for Avery or the baby at all and it’s all about her getting her career back.
And it’s kind of always been that way for Juliette because she always needs the spotlight, but I feel like it’s 10 times worse now. Especially since when everyone stepped in to give her an intervention she walked out and then ended up firing her manager and turning to Jeff Fordham.
I mean seriously? Jeff AGAIN?! I hate Jeff so much, but we’ll get to him later.
If I’m honest I thought Juliette would have wised up after she almost hit Avery and the baby with the snow globe. I mean she really has lost it and Avery was right to leave her. I just wonder where he will go. And I am so glad Avery has stepped up because he used to be a total douche in season one. I guess it just shows how much people change.
All I can hope is that Juliette realises what she’s doing. I mean I definitely think it was a mistake to go to Jeff Fordham and an even bigger mistake screwing over Rayna by signing with Luke’s record label. I mean I like that she’s back because I did miss her while she was pregnant, but now all I want is for her to get some help and to realise what she’s doing.
“Happy family”
Jeff Fordham
Moving onto Jeff Fordham…oh how I hate him. He’s like the worst character on the show. And what’s worse, he’s managing Layla Grant and he’s seriously hurting her.
Like he has banished her from the outside world because she can’t handle the criticism and is controlling her whole life. And the sad part is, Layla still believes he’s doing the right thing by her. Which in some ways he might be, he might be doing good things for her career but her emotional wellbeing not so much. I mean I feel like Layla has been through enough emotional damage with being married to a gay guy for a whole season but this…no. Just no. Jeff leave her alone!
I mean Layla found out Jeff was the one that got her kicked off Jade’s tour and she attacked his car with a golf club. I mean I seriously thought she was going to do some real damage and then I got so scared when Jeff took the golf club from her…Like I just see Jeff doing something so horrible to her and I just don’t want to see it happen.
I really just think Layla needs to spend some time away with Jeff and with some people that really care about her. Which I know is hard for her since she doesn’t really have anyone, not even Rayna because she’s been dealing with Deacon…
Layla attacking Jeff’s car with a golf club
As for Jeff, I can’t believe he accepted Juliette’s offer about him being her manager and got her signed with Luke. Like I just don’t need this. Jeff has hurt so many people and I know this thing with Juliette will explode and just…ugh. People need to stay away from Jeff.
And he’s not even like the other characters on the show who have changed, he’s still the same. And I find it hard to believe he cares for Layla because of the way he is and I just…need him banished. Plus he’s the reason why Teddy is in trouble with the police. He’s just an awful person.
Moving away from that and onto something a little bit lighter, Scarlett and Gunnar.
These guys have been through so much this season and I really don’t know whether I want them to get together or not.  I mean they are back singing as a duo like they were originally and the song they wrote in this episode was really good but…I thought Scarlett was happy with her doctor boyfriend and Gunnar was trying to figure out what he had with Kiley.
Plus I wanna know if Scarlett and Gunnar actually kissed. I mean they left so many cliff-hangers in this episode that I can’t wait for season four.
I mean I guess I would be happy either way with those two. Together or not I’d be happy. I mean I used to ship them a lot but then I saw how happy Scarlett was with her new boyfriend and I thought maybe not…
But you never know. I feel like Scarlett and Gunnar will get back together but who knows if it’ll last. I mean at this point I’m just glad nothing too tragic has happened to either of them and they are okay right now. Like on the drama scale, they are pretty low…
Scarlett and Gunnar’s possible kiss?!
Now moving onto the best and happiest news of the whole episode. Will Lexington finally came out!
You have no idea how HAPPY this makes me! After all this time denying it and having secret hook-ups he’s finally told the world and I am so glad.
I mean Luke is not happy because he had no idea of the situation before it exploded, but that doesn’t matter.
I am so glad Will has told everyone and can now be free. Plus he’s in love and it’s so cute and he definitely deserves it after everything he has been through. Like I am so over the moon about this. It was the happiest thing to happen in the whole episode.
Now if Will could just leave Luke’s record label and hop over to Highway 65 that would be great.
Plus I thought my reaction to Will coming out was great…and then I went on Twitter and I saw Clare Bowen’s reaction:

Her reaction just made me so happy too. I mean I feel like that’s how we all felt really haha. It was just a really great moment on the show because we have been seeing Will struggle with his sexuality for so long and he’s finally been able to tell the world and I love it. It’s so great. I mean I really have no words about it I just think it’s amazing that he doesn’t have to hide anymore.
And that concludes my thoughts on the Nashville season finale!
There was a lot, I know, but that’s just how much that happens on the show. And I used to think this show was boring. Season three definitely stepped it up. I mean this season has just been a roller coaster and by the end of the finale episode I was feeling like the world is ending. At least on this show it was.
Now the only thing to do is sit back and wait. Which kills me because it means all my shows are ending for the summer. Even Vampire Diaries is ending this week and Elena is leaving so that’s another show that’s going to leave me an emotional wreck…
WHY DO I GET SO ATTACHED TO TV SHOWS?! On the bright side… PLL comes back next month…
Anyway I’m gonna go now…probably cry over fictional characters on a show or something but please leave me a comment letting me know what you thought of the Nashville finale if you watched it and I’ll be back soon with a new blog post, probably about Nina Dobrev leaving the Vampire Diaries…but we’ll see.
~ Courtney x