One Tree Hill Season 3 Thoughts!

I feel like I always start binge watching a season of this show but I’ll get about halfway through and won’t watch any for ages and I feel like that happened here. I also do this thing where I’ll make loads of bullet points at the start of the season and I feel like it’s too many so by the time we get towards the end I’m barely making any at all. How do I balance this lol

Anyway, before we dive in let’s see how my predictions panned out:

First of all, I was wrong about Brooke, she was here the whole time haha Keith did come back but not even until the halfway through the season and then…well we know what happened to him this season and that wasn’t cute. There wasn’t really an official investigation into Dan, he just kind of went about it on his own. Lucas finally spilled about his HCM so good for him and finally, Haley and Nathan did find their way back together. I knew they would.

Now onto this season of One Tree Hill:

  • Lol of course Dan is alive. Evil don’t die bitches
  • 3 months later and Brooke comes back with bangs and Peyton also got a new hair style. There’s more ways to show a time jump lads – even Deb has curly hair now haha
  • Surprise surprise Dan is out for revenge
  • Haley and Brooke living together. Oh what fun 😛
  • Nathan at high flyers getting back in the game cute
  • Dan and Deb officially divorcing yay!
  • Brooke and Lucas being casual. We see how long it lasts because Lucas has a secret and I feel like it’s hooking up with Peyton because why not
  • But then he has another secret from that night when Dan almost died so hmmm…unless it’s both the same secret
  • So much for a mystery it was Lucas who started the fire hahaha
  • Oh Lucas saved Dan’s life? He wasn’t trying to kill him? Wild
  • Does Peyton’s birth mum actually have cancer? Sounds like a lie
  • Poor Mouth heartbroken over Erica – she doesn’t deserve you Mouth!
  • Also Haley getting bullied is something I never saw like for following her dreams? Stupid
  • I can’t believe Nathan wants a full on divorce. At least he’s waiting a year before its official
  • We love a good costume party
  • Wow Mouth and Peyton dancing to disco inferno is EVERYTHING
  • So Brooke is so jealous of that girl
  • Dan running for mayor and Deb doing all these crazy things to piss Dan off is my fave. Like always be this Deb it is the best
  • Of course Peyton’s biological mum lied about being able to draw. I know she was trying to spare Peyton’s memories of her other mum. But yeah…
  • So Chris is the one that kissed Haley at the costume party…interesting
  • Peyton has a podcast now?
  • Wow we love that Karen is running against Dan is mayor. Bring it on
  • Fantasy boy draft? Sounds like fun if boys at your school are literally Chad Michael Murray but that would have never worked at my school
  • I like Brooke too much to like Rachel at all haha
  • BROOKE SLEPT WITH CHRIS THAT IS SO GROSS
  • Yassss Peyton choosing Mouth that is cute
  • Nathan can be so cute with Haley sometimes I can’t deal
  • Peyton, Brooke and Haley getting arrested for stealing clothes hahaha
  • Of course Dan became mayor, I definitely thought Karen had a chance though
  • Also I don’t remember Brooke having a history for wanting to work in fashion so this whole fashion thing kind of came out of nowhere, not that I am complaining
  • I guess this is the last we will see of Deb? I will miss her
  • Wow Dan getting into Nathan’s head about his relationship with Haley, I didn’t think that could still be done
  • By the way, I’m not even surprised it was Deb who tried to kill Dan like she was basically at her limit with him
  • But hey is Keith back for real now? And are he and Karen finally going to get back together?
  • Brooke and Lucas 2.0 is cute
  • Peyton will 100% get her heart broken by her birth mother again and I’m not here for it, she hasn’t had a lot of good things going for her at all and like I just want her to be happy
  • Was Clothes Over Bros ever a real thing – I tried to Google but nothing came up, something tells me it was with the way it’s advertised at the end of episodes
  • Omg everyone is talking about college – are they gonna go separate ways? It’s hard enough to keep up with everyone when they aren’t at school
  • Rachel is still scheming when it comes to Brooke lol I kind of hope she sticks around
  • Yass Keith and Karen
  • A school shooting and a suicide? This show was ahead of its time
  • I just gotta say though, I saw this coming when the time capsule got released. But the episode was still super tense
  • I also kind of hate that they are writing in any excuse for Peyton and Lucas to get together – THERE ARE OTHER WAYS – not to mention Brooke is going to get heartbroken once again. This is not cute guys
  • I think I was the most shocked at the end of the episode when DAN SHOT KEITH. RUDE. What the hell?!
  • I’m pretty sure Peyton will be fine which is good
  • I am sad about the guy who committed suicide, and yes the episode had a good message. I just didn’t expect it from this show – nor did I expect it so soon? It makes me think of that Grey’s Anatomy shooting episode. I wasn’t expecting it either and it broke my heart.
  • I wonder how we recover from this? I suppose we don’t but then when it comes to TV shows I feel like everyone is amazing at recovering from trauma real quick. Like Meredith Grey has been through A LOT but she still doing her job. If I was her I would’ve given up long ago haha.
  • Anyway…back to One Tree Hill
  • I knew Rachel released the time capsule
  • Mouth is so pure and him being friends with Rachel wrecks me – like I think sometimes they are cute together but then Rachel will be rude to him and I won’t stand for it
  • Karen being off the rails because of Keith has me so shocked, who knew she could be this way?
  • Also this Pete from Fall Out Boy thing is just plain weird and random and totally necessary, I want good things for Peyton but probably not this lol
  • So is Deb back for good?
  • Lucas finally stepping up about his heart, I knew he had to confess at some point
  • I was not expecting Rachel to be dating uncle Cooper lol – can’t believe she lied and broke Mouth’s heart what a bitch
  • At least Cooper is not a creeper and when he realised she was in high school left town
  • Dan having a change of heart about Nathan came way too late and sure I feel a little bad for him but he killed Keith so…he sucks. Nathan and Deb were right to get the restraining order
  • Peyton going to see Jake is what I needed in my life. We love Jake.
  • Wow she’s asking him to marry her lol that would never work, we need to stop people thinking that’s a good idea just because Nathan and Haley are making it work
  • So Nathan and Haley’s wedding day…I can sense something going wrong, you don’t start an episode out with Nathan dreaming Haley is drowning and nothing happens…
  • Deb telling Dan she tried to kill him is iconic, I honestly love her haha
  • Karen is pregnant? Damn
  • Is this show trying to make it so Peyton is always alone and has no friends – like she told Brooke she had feelings for Lucas and she is not having it at all. So it looks like they’re friendship is over once more
  • Also Brooke being pissed at Lucas for the kiss and also she keeps saying she’s been going through a lot but like has she? All I know is that she’s been making clothes…
  • Oh I see they want us to think everyone could possibly be pregnant because Brooke made everyone the same purse.
  • Also wow Rachel is crazy, but I honestly felt like she was going to do something wild like that just by how she was acting about Cooper – I personally think she has spiralled super quick compared to how we saw her in the beginning
  • I’m really annoyed they keep having this cliffhangers where they try to kill of main characters like hello I am not here for Nathan to be dying guys this ain’t cute.

So this season was jam-packed with drama like always. I feel like I always say this but like I just want some good things to happen for Peyton, compared to everyone else her life is so tragic and like for once could it be cute? I feel like it won’t ever be find until she’s finally with Lucas but I hate that, like why can’t she be happy without a man in her life?

As for the whole guess who’s pregnant thing, I don’t know who it is and I honestly don’t care? I feel like if it’s Haley that’s just crazy, isn’t it enough she married young, if it’s Brooke that’s lame because we already had that pregnancy scare and finally, if it’s Rachel well that’s just her being desperate to keep Cooper. Over it.

I am surprised about Karen though, I hope that she has her baby and keeps the memory of Keith alive. I was shocked that Dan said he would help take care of the baby but we all know he’s just feeling guilty.

I wonder what the aftermath of the accident will be, I assume Nathan will be fine because Haley is way too young to be a widow. As for Cooper and Rachel I don’t know, but I think Rachel’s time on the show is coming to an end. So we’ll see.

I don’t really have predictions this time around, I’m just kind of hoping good things happen for Peyton and Brooke and Lucas either call it quits for good or make it work.

So that’s it for now, hopefully I’ll be back soon to talk about season 4.

~ Courtney x

I Will Always Love You by Cecily von Ziegesar Review

The final Gossip Girl book. 12 books in 4 months. Wild.

I hate to say this but why was the last book the best one? Like I’m not even kidding, this is like the way I’ve wanted the entire series. So this book is set over the course of four years, every year it focuses on New Year’s Eve and so much happens! I love it.

I feel like the pace of the books has been too slow for me, like the first 10 books span like the whole senior year of high school for everyone and then the prequel spans a good few months over and the timeline is confusing. Then there is this one which is clearly spaced out and the pacing was good and of course, there was lots of drama.

Sad it took them until the last book to get things going but I guess it’s nice to finally be at the end.

Anyway, let’s dive in because we have so much to cover! I think I’ll try to do it by year since that makes the most sense and everyone’s story kind of intertwines. You definitely need to grab a drink and a snack if you’re going to read all of this.

First of all, Blair is home for the holidays, sort of. She has finished up her first semester at Yale and has a new boyfriend, Pete. Cute. She spends Christmas with him and his family, assuming she would spend New Year’s with them on holiday too, until she finds out Pete’s family has a no ring, no bring rule about family holidays. So she packs her bags and heads of to New York to stay with Serena, she doesn’t have a choice when her family had moved out to LA. Plus her and Serena had kept in touch while she was at Yale.

Serena is a movie star, she just filmed the sequel to Breakfast at Fred’s and is living a kind of lonely life. She has movie star friends sure, but they were nothing compared to her old friends in high school. She is thrilled that Blair is in town but is jealous of her living her best life at Yale, so also pretends she is living the good life.

The two of them agree to go to Chuck’s New Year’s party that he throws every year at the Tribeca Star Hotel, but Serena has to stop at Thad’s (her gay costar from the movie) New Year’s party first. Serena did invite Blair but Blair didn’t want to accept a pity invite from movie star Serena van der Woodsen.

Serena ends up spending a little too much time at Thad’s and Blair is pissed. Of course Serena would ditch her and she would have to spend time at this party where most people are in high school. So gross.

Surprisingly though there is one familiar face…Nate. Our favourite stoner, who surprisingly isn’t all that stoned. He is back after sailing around with Chips for a few months, but Chips surprised him by saying he was headed off to chill and enjoy retirement while Nate went back to his old life. He couldn’t avoid it forever.

Nate and Blair end up falling into bed – just like old times! And Nate is like “yes this is where I’m meant to be, with Blair.” Cue eye rolls because this is classic Nate. He even agrees that he should go to Yale with her because he doesn’t know what else to do.

Later that day, Blair gets a call from Tiffany saying there is a package for her, and of course she’s excited because who wouldn’t be about getting a call from Tiffany? So she goes to the store to find Pete there with a ring – like is he proposing? He is definitely not proposing but he thought if he got her a ring he could bring her on holiday. How cute! Sadly Blair turns him down because she has Nate back and they are going to live the perfect life together, so she doesn’t need Pete anymore.

Sadly the perfect life doesn’t last long for her because Serena finds out about them being together and that Nate is going to Yale too. She is not happy about this so she decides to remind Blair about her boyfriend, Blair gets angry with her and they start fighting. Classic love triangle issues. I wish I could be mad about the love triangle but at this point I’m going with it, it’s the last book so why not?

Nate is mad that the girls have been fighting over him this way, he seems to always come between them so he takes off. He decides to go off to this farm school in California where Chuck ended up going, leaving the girls on their own. Blair decides she can’t be friends with Serena anymore because she seemingly ruins everything for Blair. And I guess that is the end of that…

Side note on Chuck: he didn’t get into any of the colleges he applied to so he was sent away to this weird farming school and has suddenly become a completely different person. Nate saw the change in Chuck and thought maybe the school would be good for him too. Seems weird but okay we go with it.

Meanwhile, Dan is home from Washington and realised he missed Vanessa the whole time. The two of them were able to keep up long distance but Dan decided he couldn’t take it anymore. So he decided to transfer to Columbia to be with Vanessa.

Vanessa on the other hand had been getting along well at NYU, and was surprised about Dan wanting to come back to the city. She was excited at first but she wasn’t sure about them living together again because we all know how well that went…

But it’s fine because we don’t get to see how it pans out because Vanessa ends up cheating on Dan with her old TA Hollis from college. And am I even surprised? Dan cheated on her way back in the day so it’s only fair Vanessa gets a shot. Dan is angry and tells her to move out.

And that is it for year one…

I was surprised about Dan and Vanessa not wanting to speak because they have always been friends in some way after something between them happens. But they keep their distance.

In the next year we discover than Dan has been living his life at Columbia but failing at being a poet. He is on a deadline for one of his classes but he hasn’t been inspired at all, so he decides to submit one of his old poems and calls it ‘Serena’.

Serena, ends up at the New Year’s party at Chuck’s and this time, she is the one that ends up seeing Nate and hooking up with him. Not surprised. But after they hook up, Nate brings up Blair and Serena realises he is always going to love her, so she ditches Nate in her apartment.

Later Serena discovers Dan’s poem and she decides to reach out to him. Her previous relationship with Dan originally was so shitty, not like the TV show where they were always on and off. So I was surprised when they reconciled again, but then again I guess Serena was lonely and flattered that someone was thinking of her – not like the rest of the world wasn’t but they didn’t write her a poem…

Blair this New Year’s is going through A LOT. First off, she ended up back together with Pete at Yale and so she is excited to bring him to New York and introduce him to her old friends so naturally she brings him to Chuck’s party. This is when she sees Nate and Serena together and she freaks out and insists they leave.

I guess it’s one thing to live a perfect life and pretend S and N don’t exist when you are at uni but to see them in real life is something else. Pete is confused as to why Blair was freaking out and asks her what’s wrong, she finally decides to tell Pete about hooking up with Nate last New Year’s Eve and he storms off to stay with a cousin to clear his mind.

Blair ends up holed up in her hotel room for most of the new year, only leaving to try and do some shopping and have some retail therapy. Sadly while she is in Barney’s she ends up running into Serena because it seems like Manhattan is the smallest place in the world. She is obviously angry with Serena and leaves to go back to her hotel room.

I don’t think I’ve ever seen Blair so off the rails but then again, her best friend is no longer her friend, her ex Nate is someone she can no longer trust and her current boyfriend might have dumped her too. Not cute.

Then one night, Nate is stoned and decides to sneak into Blair’s hotel room and surprise her. I thought this was kind of creepy considering she is staying in a hotel and he didn’t know the room number or have a key. Sadly for Blair this is when Pete comes back and sees them together and breaks up with Blair for good. B is furious and tells Nate to get out too. Definitely not a good start to the year with Blair.

Not to mention Serena saying she is going to go to Yale because she thinks it might be the place to go to find herself. So Blair once again makes it clear to S that their friendship is well and truly dead.

Meanwhile there is Vanessa who ended up shacking up with Hollis and is having a fab time in a fancy Brooklyn apartment. Hollis has this idea that they need to make a movie of her life cause it sounds so wild – which to be fair some crazy things have happened to her over the years… but at the same time is weird to think about because most of it would just be her breaking up and making up with Dan haha.

So Hollis takes her to a meeting with a production company but the company want to make a completely different movie, Vanessa is not pleased and storms out of the meeting but Hollis is all on board for this new idea. Of course he’s a sell out.

He wins Vanessa over again though saying she needed to make her movie her way and he purposely didn’t want them to make a shitty version of it. Yeah, right he just wants to be famous…so he leaves to go film on location in Iceland or somewhere like that and leaves Vanessa alone with a new puppy. I’m surprised she agreed to stay, I thought she would have left, she has walked on Dan for a lot less…

Moving right along to year 3 – this one I really love.

So Serena and Dan have started seeing each other, she is at Yale and he is at Columbia. Serena travels down to see him every weekend and can’t bare to be away from him during the week. I think it’s cute but at the same time still weird because they are not the same Dan and Serena from the TV show so there is nothing about this relationship that really makes sense. Not that it was great on TV either but Dan isn’t as dark and dramatic on TV haha.

They decide to take Jenny on college visits because she is just about to graduate high school – time flies when everyone else has drama. They end up at RISD and Jenny also makes a stop at Brown where we run into our favourite guy, Nate.

He is in town looking at campuses because he has finished at his college in California. So needed a new plan. When he saw Jenny I think it was kind of decided he would go to Brown to be near her while she went to RISD.

Jenny offers Nate a ride back to the city with Dan and Serena but Dan is not thrilled about this considering Nate and Jenny dated for like five minutes years ago and broke her heart. Not to mention that Nate and Serena always had a wild past.

Dan gets overruled on his decision by Serena and they are about set off back to New York when the snow starts. They decide to go to a hotel but Serena thinks it’s a good idea to go to Blair’s house in Newport instead – because breaking into your ex friend’s house on the holidays is always a good idea lol.

To their surprise it turns out Blair was actually at her Newport house for the holidays. She was spending time with her Dad and his partner and their children. She was also spending it with her new boyfriend Chuck Bass.

Oh yeah you heard me. So after Chuck reformed when he went off to California he had comforted Blair at the end of last year and so the two ended up together when Blair was studying abroad. It seems super weird for the books to play this out – sure it was a thing on TV but the TV show played it as an epic love. It is just random in the book but we go along with it.

Blair is furious to find her friends have shown up at her doorstep because she can’t just have anything to herself anymore. She tries to put up a good front for her dad and Chuck but deep down she just wants them to leave so she can enjoy the holiday season.

Over the few days they are snowed in at Blair’s, she begins to soften and they all end up reminiscing about high school over dinner. It’s a simple scene but it is super cute. I love that they were able to bond and enjoy each other’s company instead of getting at each other’s throats.

They then decide to take it outside and go sledding because that’s the adult thing to do. It sounds like lots of fun and is real cute but Blair gets antsy watching Jenny cosying up to Nate so goes to bed.

The only person who was not having a good time reminiscing was Dan, he was never a part of the world S, N and B shared and so he sat there in the corner sulking. Classic Dan. He doesn’t go sledding either, instead he opts to sit in the library where he ends up texting Vanessa.

Dan and Vanessa haven’t spoken in two years now, and I find that weird because they always know how to patch things up. But Vanessa has been so lonely with Hollis leaving that she is glad to hear from her old friend. So they continue texting throughout the night.

While everyone is in bed, it seems like while the boys are sleeping, all the girls are drawn to a certain bedroom…Blair feels like she needs to be with Nate one last time, Serena also feels she needs to be with Nate because seeing him with Jenny was weird and of course Jenny wants to see Nate because she plans to lose her virginity to him. Wow. He’s so popular with the ladies, how does he do it?

Luckily for Jenny, Blair catches Serena on the way to Nate’s and they both won’t admit that they want to see him so both reluctantly go to bed. This paves the way for Jenny to slink in and finally be with the guy of her dreams.

The next day, B and S are yelling at each other again for both trying to land Nate. This causes their boyfriends to be a bit wary and so the gang pack up and leave Blair to enjoy what’s left of her holiday alone.

Hollis comes back to surprise Vanessa but spends most of his time away doing movie things, he discovers the texts on Vanessa’s phone and is pissed. Though he doesn’t really have a right too since he is the one that packed up and went to make a film and ignored Vanessa the whole time he was back. It’s safe to say they end up breaking up…

And this brings us to our final year with the gang. They are all set to be graduating, well Nate and Jenny still have some time to go but even Serena who had only been at Yale for two years is scrambling to graduate. Our girl’s got brains.

So Blair is back in the city having some weird holiday party with her mum because I guess they’ve moved back to New York for a bit. Chuck is not with her because he is flying in the day after and she is feeling very lonely at this sucky holiday party.

She is not alone for long as Serena appears, as always looking fabulous. Dan is not with her because she didn’t know he could be. Blair’s plan is to ignore Serena because she always ruins B’s holiday plans, I mean isn’t it wild the past 3 years she has tried to escape her but every time she has come around and appeared? Talk about annoying.

Next thing you know Nate is also appearing – I guess this makes sense when Blair’s mum invites all their parents along but still…what she was not expecting to see was Jenny Humphrey attached to Nate’s arm.

Turns out those two had gotten together and were living the married life at college. They even had a gross nickname for each other ‘meow’ which Blair and Serena have no choice but to make fun of. They both end up excusing themselves from dinner because they are laughing so much like old times. It’s good to see them when they’re not fighting, and when I look back I know 90% of the fighting could have been avoided if Blair wasn’t overreacting, but I guess then she wouldn’t be our B.

Back at the Humphrey residence, Vanessa has found out she has gotten into a film thing in Indonesia and she is super excited about it. After she broke up with Hollis she had nowhere to really turn to except the Humphreys, and it’s not like they would kick her out. She spent most of her time avoiding Dan and Serena when they were together but Dan was by himself as Serena was out.

So Dan and Vanessa decide to go out and celebrate Vanessa’s good news. Dan had some news of his own, he is going to some writing thing in Iowa and is super excited, he is not sure what Serena’s plans are but his are set…because all that matters is Dan in his head.

The two of them end up hooking up which is not a surprise given that the usually end up together. I think I was surprised it didn’t happen sooner, even with Serena in the picture. But Vanessa felt bad about the incident and didn’t want Serena to find out, especially when she was leaving and S would still be around for Dan.

Serena had plans originally to follow Dan to Iowa, she didn’t really know what else to do with herself and it just seemed like the thing to do, but as she was about to tell Dan of her plans he broke up with her. He felt it was the right thing to do because he really wanted to be with Vanessa. Sure she was leaving but he could wait for her…though that seems a little doubtful.

Meanwhile, Jenny and Nate have plans to see the Nutcracker together and Jenny is super excited about it, however Nate doesn’t seem to thrilled. He used to go to the Nutcracker every year with Blair and he was usually high when he did, I guess he discovered that the show is not nearly as good as it is when you are half out of it.

They end up home early and Nate has fallen asleep so Jenny decides to call up her old friend Elise to go clubbing because she was invited out by Blair’s younger brother. I guess the most shocking transformation out of anyone was that Blair’s little brother Tyler, actually did grow up and become a DJ. You thought it was kind of stupid when you read about it but the boy really did the thing. Good for him.

This is when Jenny realises that her and Nate have been acting like old people, staying in their uni house every night eating takeout and hiding away from the world. She had plenty of time for that but for right now she needed to be young and have fun. So she ends up breaking up with Nate.

I didn’t expect Nate to become so domestic after getting with Jenny, but I suppose it was the nice easy thing to do compared to being with people like Blair and Serena who always had events on that he had to dress up for. Still, I never expected him to be so settled and boring.

That same night, Blair and Serena meet up to have drinks because they are friends again and that’s cute. But they decide they are missing a very important piece of their night and that is Nate. I was worried this was headed down an ugly route because the pattern of those three on New Year’s always goes that way…but surprisingly for everyone things stay strictly platonic.

B and S break into Nate’s house to find him asleep and ditched by Jenny, but the girls race past him to his room to grab drinks and watch Breakfast at Tiffany’s just like old times. Nate wakes up after hearing the noise and finds the two girls in his bed. He’s not one for turning down two beautiful girls in bed so he ends up joining them. Super cute. We love that for them.

The next day Blair is having brunch with Chuck and she has to tell him that she thinks things between them are moving too fast. For Christmas he surprised her with an apartment and his mother had been talking about children. Blair was so not ready for that life and ends up breaking up with Chuck. I definitely thought it would have lasted, I mean technically that is the life B has always wanted but I guess she realised there was more to life than it being perfect like the movies. We love some character growth.

With B and C broken up, Chuck decides to throw his signature New Year’s Eve party once more.

B and S go to the party together and are chilling in the hot tub when S gets a message from Nate. Serena gets excited and leaps out of the hot tub and down to find Nate. After breaking up with Dan she decides what she really needs is to travel and see the world and perhaps Nate is just the partner to do it with.

A second later, Blair receives the same text message from Nate and is furious with Serena for ditching her for him again, so she races after her.

Just as S is about ask Nate to go with her, she realises that he is not the right one she needs to go with. Blair arrives and is about to tear S a new one but S cuts in and asks her to go travelling with her. B is excited thinking about how they never got to travel Europe the summer they originally planned because of the love triangle situation. But S is clear that it is a girl’s trip and N is not invited.

The two girls drive off into the night, leaving Nate by himself. I am glad that this is how they ended it. I didn’t need all this back and forth with Nate again.

That being said I wish they had more of S and B choosing each other over Nate, it seemed no matter what they were always thinking about him but never about their friendship without him.

But yeah…that is the end of the Gossip Girl series. Like I said, this was probably the best book out of all of them.

There was lots of nostalgia and it I enjoyed all the drama that came with every New Year’s celebration. It kept me wondering what could possibly happen next. That and I guess I always get a bit soppy when I finish a book series.

I think I’m just glad that the series ended on a high note because it got a bit rocky towards the end, but this book is exactly what we needed. So yay for that.

Now I’m off to rest and think about what’s next on my reading list. Part of me wants to jump straight in with something like Pretty Little Liars, but at the same time I think I need to step away from the long books series’ for a while, they can be tiring to get through. But, whatever I decide to read you know I’ll be back soon enough to review it.

You know you love me,

~ Courtney x

Seventeen Inspired Makeup | Prepping for Ode To You Tour London

Last weekend I decided to practice some makeup for the Seventeen in London concert in March and thought I would film it!

It was just a bit of fun and I enjoyed playing around with the makeup. So let me know what you think!

Here is a list of all the items I used:

  • PS…Prep & Perfect Hydrate Primer
  • Estee Lauder Double Wear Stay-In-Place foundation
  • Kryolan Professional Makeup Eyeshadow Primer
  • Rimmel London Wake Me Up Concealer
  • Jeffree Star Cosmetics Setting Powder
  • JML Eyebrow Magic
  • Revolution Iconic Lights & Contour Pro Palette
  • PS…Pink Mink Highlighter
  • James Charles X Morphe Palette using colours ‘Brother’ and ‘Cola’
  • Shane Dawson X Jeffree Star Conspiracy Palette colour ‘Pig-ment’
  • Shane Dawson X Jeffree Star Liquid Lip in the colour ‘Oh My God’
  • Steve Laurant Eyeliner Pen
  • Too Faced Better Than Sex Mascara
  • Jeffree Star The Gloss in ‘Diamond Juice’
  • Cynthia Rowley Silver eyeliner pencil
  • Collection Glam Crystals Dazzling Gel Liner in the colours ‘Glitz’ and ‘Hustle’

It Had To Be You by Cecily Von Ziegesar Review

Time for a throwback…all the way back to the beginning of the Gossip Girl series with a prequel.

If you’re wondering why I waited this long to read this, it’s because I’m just reading them in the order they were released/Wikipedia had them. But you could definitely read this as the very first book in the series and it would fit in.

In this book we get the origin stories of how our lovely Upper East Siders came to be. Why Vanessa shaves her head, how Dan became a poet, how Nate became a stoner, how the big Nate, Serena and Blair love triangle came about and even about Jenny developing her massive chest. It’s all wild and it’s all right here.

Sadly the only origin story we don’t get is Gossip Girl herself. As far as I know she doesn’t reveal her identity in the books which I think is probably for the best. The TV show did a terrible reveal and I didn’t like it. I mean seriously. DAN HUMPHREY? As if. Especially in the books he could never be Gossip Girl lol.

Anyway that’s a rant for a whole other day. Let’s dive into this book shall we?

Starting off with Blair, our B. Gotta love her. So this is before she is with Nate and obviously all she is thinking about is being with him. She’s had a crush on him forever and feels like she’s gonna explode if he doesn’t marry her.

To save some time and explaining her scheming I’ll just let you know her and Nate do get together. But all Nate wants is to have sex and he thinks he is gonna get it from Blair because she loves him and he loves her so like it’s a no brainer.

As if. B begins to string Nate along and telling him she’s not ready but they can do it in summer, or after summer, or christmas…and you get where I’m going. Poor guy. Just wants to get laid lol. But I enjoy Blair being sneaky and manipulative. It’s the Blair we all know and love.

On top of that we discover the ruby ring she is so fond of was a gift from Nate. This is also when I realise that the ring hadn’t been mentioned much in the last few books and when it was it seemed out of place. Again, the effects of a ghostwriter. (I know I always sound negative about the ghostwriter but like there are just certain things you notice when suddenly a different person is writing the books).

We also discover she doesn’t handle the news about her father leaving her family for a gay man and so this is where her bulimia comes from. The book handles it in a kind of cast offish way which it has always done. Like oh Blair just went to throw up, she felt like she was gonna vomit hearing news she didn’t like. That kind of thing, definitely wouldn’t fly with that kind of writing now but I guess in 2007 it was chill.

Thankfully somewhere along the line Blair just stops throwing up. I don’t remember when but I feel like it hasn’t been mentioned in the books for ages so I guess she magically recovers. Kind of like how on TV they showed it like one time and forgot about it.

Time to move along to Serena. Our golden girl. Who is also madly in love with Nate. I guess they planted this love triangle early. And that’s fine. It was written a less annoying this time and plus this was the beginning, way before everything else so it’s fine.

Turns our Blair was not the first to kiss Nate. It was S. They kiss in bed while Blair is sleeping right next to them. So romantic lol. But this is when Serena knows for sure she loves him and Nate loves her back.

Serena was planning to tell Blair this but when she saw how Blair’s family was falling apart she thought the least she could do was let her have Nate. Even though it killed S to see her two best friends get together.

It was interesting to see Serena’s martyr act thinking she was the lost selfless person ever. But it got old real fast, like we get that you are heartbroken but time to move onto bigger and better things.

I can understand why she was pissed at Nate for just choosing Blair after they kissed and everything, but can she really fault Blair if she didn’t know S loved Nate too?

Anyway yeah I was kind of over Serena in this one. Just pining after Nate while also being a shitty friend to him and Blair. Not cute.

That being said, we did find out about how Nate “parted S’s red sea”. I mean we already knew because they’ve talked about it in previous books but in case you needed to relive it, it’s right there.

After all that goes down Serena realises she shouldn’t have slept with Nate because he is with Blair. But at the same time she is not going to stick around and watch them be in love anymore so that’s why she decides to go to boarding school. Which is kind of lame but then again it’s selfless Serena, leaving to let her two friends be happy.

Then we have Nate. And while the girls have been passing him back and forth like a game, it’s not like he hasn’t been responsible. In fact when you get right down to it, Nate is just a dick lol.

First he kisses Serena, then Blair kisses him and he decides to be with her, but once she doesn’t wanna have sex with him he decides to call up Serena and they have sex, then Blair comes back into town and he’s like “right my girlfriend”. I mean he’s trash hahaha. Sure Nate in the TV show is kind of trashy too but he is also cute in that he doesn’t mean to hurt people’s feelings and he isn’t a stoner on TV.

But yeah I guess the gist is with Nate is that he’s horny and helpless when it comes to pretty girls. He wasn’t even gonna get with Blair or Serena to begin with his was after some other girl that introduced him to weed. He liked how he felt and then just jumped in head first to become a fulltime stoner.

Safe to say him and the first girl didn’t work out. And he thought Serena wasn’t interested in him anymore when he saw her go kiss Chuck at a party. Even though she only went over there for Blair’s benefit. Not that Nate would know that. Which is how he needed up with Blair.

Nate can be kind of cute when he wants to be because when he gets with Blair he works hard to distract her from her crappy family and buys her pretty things from Tiffany we love that. But at the same time he isn’t getting any for her so the only logical thing would be to call Serena.

To be fair he only wanted to see her at first because he hadn’t seen his friend for forever but then they had sex and well…we all know the rest.

I will still stand by Nate being trash for jumping between the too. I guess the best thing he ever did was leave them both and sail around the world…

Moving on down to Brooklyn and the Upper West Side.

Dan and Jenny. Turns out both the Humphreys have an unhealthy obsession with S. Who can blame them when she is so perfect.

I think I was shocked by Jenny more just because I didn’t know her obsession ran so deep. Literally her stealing Serena’s bra and drawing all those pictures of her and everything. Crazy.

Plus in this book Jenny was twelve haha and obsessed with wanting to grow her boobs. She didn’t know she would end up with the chest she would. But at the time she was desperate to make them grow and so she ordered breast enhancement supplements lol.

It’s also kind of weird how she insisted on showing Dan the progress of her boob growth. Like I guess they are super close because they don’t have a mum but there are just some things you shouldn’t share with your brother. You should also never ask him to measure your boobs but that is a thing that happens too. Wild.

Over time Jenny’s boobs do grow. She stopped taking the supplements after like a week because Vanessa told her that she would grow naturally anyway. It’s just kind of funny she wanted them anyway. Plus she goes from loving her boobs to hating them real quick. So I guess you can never win.

So yeah…that was Jenny. Then we have Vanessa who joined Constance and had a full head of hair. I can’t believe it either. She decides that she needs to do something shocking to stand out from the girls at her school and what better way to do that than to shave your head. Not to mention Blair was with her at the time, cute.

Vanessa and Dan become friends after both getting locked out on the roof at a party and Vanessa instantly takes a liking to Dan. She knew he was different like her so maybe they could be friends, or more than that. It turns out Vanessa really loved Dan at the first sight of him and even tried to kiss him at one point.

It is kind of cute to see Vanessa wanting to be with Dan this way. In the other books she seems kind of edgy but in this one she is niave and just wants Dan to like her back. Well, until she finds out he’s like everyone else, in love with Serena. Then she’s mad. Who wouldn’t be?

I get that she was upset with Dan but at the same time she was definitely trying too hard haha I’m glad they friends though. The book talks about her being really into photography but not film making so I guess that comes after…I guess it’s not a huge leap from photography to film making. But I’m surprised it’s not mentioned.

Anyway moving on to, last but not least, Dan. Turns out he wasn’t always a smoking, depressed poet. But he always drank his coffee by the bucket load. So Dan is over here obsessing about Serena, wondering if she will ever remember him from that one party they were both at. Rufus, his dad is over Dan’s moping and suggests that he try poetry to express his feelings.

This lightbulb moment happens and suddenly Dan thinks, yes, that’s it. He writes some words down and decides he is a poet. His muse is Serena and he will write her all these love poems and she will read them and when she finds out it is him she will fall in love with him and they’ll live happily ever after. As if.

His poems are obviously super terrible, but he decides to give one to Jenny to slip into Serena’s locker anyway. She reads it and thinks it’s dark and kind of cool someone would write poetry for her but she is not fussed on finding out who wrote it. Let’s be real the girl probably gets millions of letters and poems from admirers, Dan will have to step up his game.

Dan also decides after he meets Vanessa to randomly start smoking. I guess he thought it went with his dark poet vibe. And so, this Dan we all know and kind of like was born.

Honestly not surprised that he just fell into poetry and smoking. That kind of sums up his life, maybe he is not so different from Nate. I mean he fell into poetry and it stuck, he went along with being with Vanessa and that was cool, he also just went with the flow when he was doing yoga with that one girl for some time…he even fell into being gay and out again haha. Dan doesn’t make decisions for himself, people make them for him, it’s only right his dad recommend he become a poet and he did. Plus Nate is the same, he just smokes weed and goes with the flow.

But yeah, after Vanessa finds out about Dan obsessing with Serena she is not too thrilled so they don’t talk for a while. It is actually Jenny who has to tell Dan that he should apologise to Vanessa because he could use a friend and social interaction. I guess it’s cute Jenny is looking out for him. So he goes to apologise to Vanessa and it looks like those two patch things up.

And that brings us to the end of the Gossip Girl prequel! This was cute. I feel like I would have appreciated it more if I wasn’t so jaded after the last few books. Anyway, one more book and we can be done with this series! Yes I know there is the spin off and also the It Girl book series about Jenny but I definitely need to read something new after being wrapped up in this world for a few months.

I think I’ll be glad to finish this series, it’s been a fun run but towards the end it just kind of got meh. Let’s hope the last book will allow us to finish on a high note.

You know you love me,

~ Courtney x

Don’t You Forget About Me by Cecily von Ziegesar Review

The last book, minus the prequel and the time jump sequel. We are finally going to know how the last of the summer went before everyone goes off to college…or doesn’t. I gotta say this summer has dragged on forever and I’m kind of glad it is over.

Now…where to begin?

I think back with Dan actually, I know I like to talk about Blair but we will get to her later. Dan has been annoying me so much again. Sure his gay thing was kind of funny in the last book, but now? I’m over it.

He is still so confused in this book as to what he is and even though he told everyone he was gay…he doesn’t really feel it. But he thinks he should be since apparently everyone in his life kind of suspected that he was. So in typical Dan fashion he just kind of goes with it. Until he once again realises that he should be with Vanessa – because you know that’s how these things go. Dan gets with Vanessa, he hates it and breaks up with her, he dates someone else (regardless of gender I guess), and then realises Vanessa is the one. Honestly. Almost as worse as Nate Archibald, but not quite…

So yeah Dan isn’t gay. What a revelation. Him and Vanessa get back together. I’m over it. Next. I mean I’m still surprised he is not all caught up in Serena again like he was in the TV show, but at the same time I was kind of relieved that didn’t have their on-again off-again thing. Except he did have that just with Vanessa. I don’t know. At least him and Vanessa are similar, whereas he and Serena aren’t so like it does make more sense for him to be with her…

Speaking of Vanessa – her sister is getting married! Random but sure why not. I was not really sure where this whole wedding thing was going but turns out it wasn’t a big deal it was just something to happen in Vanessa’s life. Cool.

Vanessa is struggling with her feelings with Dan (again) because he says he’s gay and she’s trying to respect that but at the same time she wants to be with him. And they both are reading each other’s actions, interpreting them wrong and decide not to talk to each other when the easiest solution would be to just talk? Honestly rolling my eyes at them every time, if they were good friends then they should be able to talk about things in the first place but I guess that’s not a thing? I suppose as artists they should just be able to interpret their feelings by looking at one another…but no such luck.

Also in this book Vanessa randomly decides to get a makeover from Blair which is kind of cute. I do wish they had amped up their friendship on the TV show because it is unlikely but I did like it. OMG I just remembered they roomed together in NYU on the TV show so technically that is the same as the book…but that being said they never became friends on the show. Oh well.

Side note: Jenny came back in the end but nothing really important came of it. I missed her being around but I suppose she has no use to scheme or anything when she’s going to boarding school like she wanted to reinvent herself like Serena did. Plus summering in Europe is the best way to come back to school with an air of mystery. So yay for Little J.

Moving onto the Blair, Nate, Serena love triangle…I’m just gonna put it out there – I hated this. So much. I don’t even know why because this did kind of happen in the TV show and like it has happened in the book before but like…some part of me thought we were done with it. So the fact it has come up like this again and also so strongly…I can’t. I mean I said before I thought Serena had only loved Nate as a friend and we were good with that – but I guess not?

So Blair and Nate come back from their month long boat trip and things are great, until Nate finally tells her he is not going to Yale and Blair is angry with him for ruining her dreams. Hey – we have not heard about her wanting to live her best Audrey Hepburn life in a while…must be the ghost writer.

Anyway since Blair is mad at Nate he decides to turn to the only other person in Manhattan he seems to feel close with – Serena. Somehow they end up falling into bed together and everything is just perfect again. Serena tells Nate how she feels and he agrees – he does love Serena. I’m over here shaking my head because he literally stole Viagra because he couldn’t get it up for S a few books ago but sure…

Continuing on Serena’s movie (remember that thing) has its release date moved up so she has to do a press conference for it and this is where it is revealed that the director wants to film a sequel with our leading lady S of course. This is where Serena thinks that maybe Yale isn’t for her and she should defer for a year so she can do some acting. Because let’s be real – Serena doesn’t plan for the future. She just goes with the flow and is up for anything.

Looks like Nate will also end up staying in the city next year because he bailed on his summer job with Coach and so will have to repeat his senior year of high school. Ouch. Though with this news, S thinks it makes sense to stay in the city so that she can go on and have a real relationship with Nate. And N, thinking he can have his cake and eat it too thinks maybe staying in the city wouldn’t be too bad with S around. He could see her on the weekdays and be with B in Yale on weekends. Sneaky.

Too bad for Blair though who is planning to do everything she can to keep Nate with her and away from Serena and the city. She doesn’t know they slept together but it is only a matter of time before that comes out right? B has these visions of Nate and her being together in New Haven living the practically-married life she had always imagined for them. Nate can just travel up and down from Yale to school everyday – easy.

Things all come to a head at B’s going away party held at the MET. We find out that B got her dad to have a word with Yale and now Nate can go with her to New Haven and they can live the perfect life. Too bad Serena is planning on breaking B’s heart because her and Nate are finally going to be together like they’ve always wanted…with Nate Archibald in the middle stoned and thinking what’s a guy to do? He has to choose.

Nate’s decision is to not choose either of them at all. He realises that he has always been there with both of them, and coming between both of them that maybe he should just remove himself from the picture entirely.

And so with that we have B and S, friends once more. B headed off to Yale, S going on to persue her acting, Vanessa in NYU going back to filmmaking an Dan headed off to whatever college he decided on…

I’m not going to lie the ending is kind of cute, I never saw it ending badly, everyone was going to have a good ending. But at the same time it bugs me a little bit that Nate just copped out of a decision but it makes sense for him because he’s Nate.

As for S and B, well I didn’t expect either of them to be too mad at the other one for long because they have always been the bestest of friends. Nothing can come between them, even Nate though he tries and sometimes succeeds.

Side note: love that they are setting up for the spin-off books with the mention of the Carlyles – I don’t think I will read those. But if I ever do it will probably be a while before I get to them, I am a little bit excited to step away from this world of the Upper East Side.

I feel like I purposely have disliked the last few books because they were ghost written. I mean part of it is that even though it is mostly the same style as the novels there is a slight difference and I feel like I felt it. Or maybe I’m just being dramatic lol. But at least the next couple books are written by the actual author, so let’s see if we can end it on a high note.

You know you love me,

~ Courtney x

Day6 In London!

After finding out I missed Day6 last year I made sure it wasn’t going to happen again.

I have listened to Day6 since I found out they were coming to KCon NY 2016. Let’s set the backstory.

So I was going to KCon with my friend Jasmine but I was kind of new to KPop at the time. I knew of Girls’ Generation and a couple of other people but I wasn’t super into it which meant I had no idea who anyone coming to KCon was. I felt like such a fraud so I had to do some research and listen to some music.

With Day6, it was amazing, literally there was not a single Day6 song that I didn’t like. I don’t know what it is about them but their music is always a bop. So I knew I would enjoy them.

That was the first time I ever saw them live and I thought it was great. All of KCon was amazing.

Now with lots of KPop idols coming over to the UK on world tours, I thought I would keep a lookout for when someone I liked was coming over.

I’m pretty sure I only found out about Day6 in London last year in February? I am still not the biggest KPop stan so I don’t keep up all the time with news and everything but I was so sad that I missed them. Like I said, I’ve never not liked a song from them so I know a concert of theirs was gonna be insane.

I don’t really know how to describe the experience, it was the first time I was going to a standing concert and I wanted to be near the front because, if this was the only time I was going to stand at a concert, I wanted to be close. So we spent most of the day queuing haha.

I thought queuing was going to suck, just me and my brother standing in the cold for hours. Which it partly was. But then, everyone around us in line was pretty friendly so we made some friends which made the time pass quicker because you had new people to talk to and fangirl over Day6 with.

I’ve never been a part of anything like it before – sure I was at KCon but because we were seated, we didn’t line up until it was time for doors to open. But being surrounded by all these people that love the same thing that you do, and understand you – it’s so communal. Like everyone is nice and supportive and people are handing out cute freebies and everything it’s great.

That’s not to say there isn’t a bad side to KPop fans like there are any fandoms but on concert days it’s super positive and fun.

When we finally got into the venue the energy was incredible. I just remember feeling kind of in shock, like Day6 were right in front of me? Singing the songs that I had been listening to for years? It was crazy.

I’ve been to other concerts before but this one was different. I just felt differently about it.

I had the best time and will definitely be going to their next tour if/when they come back. I just really felt in the moment with them, jumping around and having a blast. It was great.

Then after the show was the hi touch and I was super nervous about it. I mean it’s always nerve-wracking meeting your faves in real life.

It kind of passed in a blur the things I remember the most were Young K looking directly into my soul, I swear he caught me off guard so much. I also remember feeling Sungjin’s presence as a leader, I don’t know if that makes sense but it just sort of radiated off him up close. And then Jae saying “thank you for coming out tonight” – I know he was saying similar things to everyone but something about it to me stuck. I wish I could remember more of my time with Wonpil and Dowoon but it kind of passed me by quickly. I hope if I get the chance to do another hi touch with them I get to spend more time remembering the other members.

Then just like that it was over…and I’ve been thrown back into my fangirl days but only this time it’s about Day6. I’m pretty sure the last time I fully fangirled over something like this it was Twilight haha I thought I had kind of moved on from the fangirl part of my life but I guess not.

I’m now constantly on Twitter and reading people’s tweets about the band and always wanting news on what they are up to next. I definitely think I’m in love with them, and I’m not mad about it.

And so yeah that’s where I’ll leave this little post. It’s been 2 weeks since the concert and I’m still not fully over it. If you want to know more about my trip to London and the concert you can check out my vlog below. (It was originally going to be like 3 videos but I just ended up editing it into a huge 40 minute one haha.)

~ Courtney x

American Royals by Katharine McGee Review

A full book review on something not Gossip Girl? I’m surprised too.

So this is American Royals, which might as well be Gossip Girl if they were royalty haha. In case you couldn’t tell I do love a good bit of drama in my books.

This one took me a while to get into though because I was thrown in the deep end with like six characters I didn’t know and new point of view’s every chapter so a girl needed a minute to be like – who is that? Once we got that down things became a lot easier.

So I’m going to break it down for you real quick here before we dive in haha:

  • Beatrice: The first in line for the throne
  • Sam: Beatrice’s younger sister
  • Jeff: Sam’s twin brother
  • Nina: Sam’s best friend who has a crush on Jeff
  • Daphne: Used to date Jeff, wants to be a royal
  • Connor: Beatrice’s security detail but also is in love with her
  • Teddy: Beatrice’s potential husband but has feelings for Sam

Okay so they are the main players, even from my bullet points I feel like you can tell a lot from them haha.

Let’s start with Beatrice, the first in line for the throne. Always prim and proper and does the right thing…until she falls in love with her bodyguard. Well, I saw this coming a mile away with the way the story was written. You just knew Connor was in love with her and it was only a matter of time before she fell too. I ship it.

Sadly though they could never be together, not when Beatrice is up to be Queen. Not only that but the first Queen ever. Because they had a rule that the successor was always meant to be male because you know…that’s always a thing.

Also it’s super weird to read about if America had royalty. Like adjusting to this, me forgetting it’s not set in England and isn’t about the British haha. But it’s good, better to keep it fictional. I also find it fun how I’m reading about American royal drama when currently there’s real British royal drama with Prince Harry and Meghan but like we didn’t come here to talk about that. I just felt the need to say it was a weird coincidence I would read about this when actual royalty is getting so much attention right now.

Anyway yeah so Beatrice is gonna be Queen and it’s going to happen sooner than she thought because the King has stage four cancer. Not good. Plus not only that but she is being pressured into finding a husband because it would make it easier for America to adjust to the idea of a Queen if she had a King. Cue: Teddy.

Teddy is introduced at the ball and he is the only one of Beatrice’s potential suitors that she can really tolerate. They both come from a mutual place of understanding when it comes to what is expected of them making them the perfect couple. At least it would appear that way.

Before Beatrice had met Teddy he had actually run into Sam first and they had a moment together, kissed and everything. So scandalous. Obviously Sam wasn’t too thrilled to find out about Beatrice and Teddy but we will get to that.

Beatrice actually isn’t too thrilled about her relationship with Teddy either as she and her bodyguard Connor have admitted their feelings for one another and are sneaking around. Keeping everything pretty PG though.

Next thing you know, Beatrice has run out of time and has proposed to Teddy. This is obviously not the news Connor expected to hear and so he proposes to Beatrice right after her announcement. I was expecting her to go with her heart and accept Connor’s proposal but she declines! She accepts Connor’s resignation and continues on with her planning of the wedding.

Honestly, props to Beatrice for wanting to serve her country, but at the same time part of me wonders if things begin to fall apart once the actual wedding day arrives…

Moving onto Sam, who is always feeling invisible and like the “spare” child. She is next in line to the throne and she feels like that’s all people see her as. She is jealous of all the attention that is brought down on Beatrice but does not understand the pressure her sister is under.

However, the two do end up having a cute heart to heart moment in the kitchen so I think they’re relationship is on the mend.

Sam is also BFF’s with Nina who she has known since she was little. Nina is not a royal but her mother worked for them so she grew up basically as part of the family. However now that Nina is in uni she tends to keep her relationship with Sam on the DL so no one knows.

This was all working well for Nina until she starts dating Jeff, Sam’s brother. I saw it coming from the way the book is written – it tries to act like there was all this drama going on between Jeff, his ex – Daphne, and Nina but I clocked that Nina totally hooked up with Jeff ASAP – you know I love the drama.

Anyway Nina starts dating Jeff in secret and it is going well until the press finds out about them and everyone starts calling Nina a social-climbing gold-digger. All this comes down on her courtesy of Daphne, Jeff’s ex.

After Nina ignores Jeff for a couple weeks he decides to go and talk to her and they believe they can make it work. For about five minutes. Nina is very insecure about her relationship with Jeff so when Daphne talks to her and explains she will never fit in, well that seems to be the end of her and Jeff.

I was surprised that Nina gave up on Jeff again so quickly but it really annoyed me when he didn’t believe Nina about Daphne being the one to leak photos to the press etc. Then again Jeff is kind of an idiot haha. I feel like he doesn’t want to put effort into his relationship to make it work and maybe being with Daphne would be easier for him…

Speaking of Daphne. I do kind of love her character. She was dating Jeff until he dumped her and now she is doing everything to get him back. She has been working her whole life to become a royal and it is a lot of pressure. I also keep forgetting how young she is because honestly she sounds like she’s 23 but she’s only like 18.

As determined as Daphne is to be an adult, she doesn’t have together all the time. Even though she is trying to get back with Jefferson she can’t deny she may have real feelings for his best friend Ethan.

Ethan can see right through Daphne and her schemes and she really enjoys the fact that there is someone out there that can see the real her. It’s only a matter of time before her facade slips in front of Jefferson and he finds out who she really is. At least I hope so.

Not to mention Daphne is so ruthless that she DRUGGED her own best friend to stop her from spilling the tea about her and Ethan to Jefferson. That is why her friend is in a coma. Like damn. I knew she did something, that was obvious but who knew it was this, I thought she just pushed the girl down the stairs haha.

Can’t wait ’til Himari comes out of that coma girl.

Anyway, everything comes to a head at the big engagement party for Teddy and Beatrice. This is when Beatrice realises that she cannot go through with this engagement and wants to call of the wedding. Hallelujah, she has come to her senses.

Connor finds Beatrice at the engagement party and Beatrice realises that he is the one she should be with. He agrees to come back and work for Beatrice but she knows that could never be enough. So she makes plans to tell her father after the party.

Sadly, when Beatrice tells her father he is not in support of it. Not surprising but at the same time I thought he might have just stood by his daughter anyway. The news comes as such a shock to him that he ends up having a heart attack. Eeek. Though this isn’t the first time someone has used shocking news to bring on a heart attack to someone in a book/movie/TV show.

So the King is rushed to the hospital and everyone in the state has put their own life on hold so they can monitor the King’s. Beatrice and her family are in the hospital and no one knows about Beatrice calling off the engagement. She couldn’t call it off now that the King is in the hospital.

Beatrice manages to have a few last words with her father but he does not get a chance to tell her about what he thinks about Teddy and Connor. Though Beatrice comes to her own conclusions about that, she needs to stay with Teddy in order to be a good Queen. Whatever her and Connor have will be torn apart by the media and the people thinking he is not good enough for her.

Too bad we will never know what he really thought. As the family are outside accepting well-wishes and gifts from the people outside the hospital, they receive news that the King has passed away.

This is when the whole nation turns to bow to Beatrice, their new Queen.

And I am left over here with a bunch of questions. I’m glad there will be a second book but apparently it will not be out until Autumn so I have a lot of waiting to do.

I want to know what Beatrice will decide about Connor and Teddy. I mean I guess it is kind of made clear what will happen. She will go through with her wedding but still see Connor on the side and it’ll probably be a hot mess. Though she could just marry Connor anyway and perhaps give the title up to Samantha?

It would make sense if Samantha became Queen, especially with Teddy on her side. Sure it is going to be super tacky to just take your sister’s place with her fiance and everything but like…it’ll be fine. Though I’m not sure if Sam would really want to be Queen. So we see what happens.

There there is the whole Daphne/Nina/Jeff situation. Nina saw Daphne at the hospital with Jeff and decided it was too much to handle for her so she left without anyone seeing her. I hope that she can either move on from Jeff or find someway to expose Daphne and get her man back.

As for Daphne, well she is on cloud nine and is surprised things are working out so well for her. After waking up to the news about the King, she wasted no time going to the hospital to console Jefferson. If only he knew who she woke up next to…

I imagine the truth will come out about Daphne soon, whether it comes from Himari if she wakes up from her coma, Ethan the angry lover or Nina the jealous ex. The world will find out the tea. Or at least Jeff will.

So that is where I am going to leave it. I definitely did not expect this series to draw me in like it has but now I want to know what happens next. I think Beatrice will make an amazing Queen but I know that there will be issues no matter who stands beside her as her King consort.

Not to mention that whatever she chooses will change Sam’s fate also, if she isn’t with Teddy then Sam can be, but if not then Sam has to watch them be a happy couple to the world…

So yeah, lots of questions and wondering. It’s safe to say I’ll be picking up the sequel whenever I get the chance. In the meantime it is time to venture back to the Upper East Side, I think I only have like four books left to read so let’s get to it, shall we?

~ Courtney x

2019!

Another year has gone by and it is time for me to once again reflect on it. I seriously wanted to get this blog post done before the new year but I spent a lot of time just chilling and seeing friends and family etc I had no time – plus a little bit of laziness. But we are doing it now!

Honestly when I think back on 2019 it’s pretty much a blur, the first half of the year was spent stressing out just trying to get through final year of uni (and watching too much Grey’s Anatomy), then there was graduation and my last official summer holiday before starting work (where I read a lot of books) and then finally the end of the year where I started working and living with my boyfriend and adjusting to all the Xbox he plays. And that is my year in a nutshell.

If that was all I had to write for this blog post that would be great but I do like to go through month by month to just see how much I’ve actually done. Plus luckily for me, this year I have a full planner which will tell me week by week what I’ve been doing lol.

So let’s start in January shall we?

I rang in the year with my boyfriend, which has been something I’ve been doing the past few years. I can’t remember much about the night but I assume it was good. We have been together for almost four years now and I think it’s safe to say we are pretty solid, but I’m not about to plan a wedding yet haha.

Also in January we started back at uni and of course that is stressful. I literally don’t remember anything about uni and I think it’s because I might have blocked out how stressful it was. Final year compared to the rest of my university experience was no joke. It was tough and I definitely wasn’t as organised as I should have been.

One thing I started doing to ease the stress a bit was binge-watch Grey’s Anatomy. I started in January and just kept going the whole way through the year and the uni semester until I had finished all 15 seasons. I never thought I would make it the whole way but I’m proud I did.

I had my first drag show of the year in January, it’s hard to believe because it feels so long ago. I also celebrated one year of taking pole classes! It’s crazy that I’ve stuck with it for so long, I for sure thought that I was going to quit somewhere along the line but now it’s been two years, and it’s amazing. So I don’t see myself giving it up anytime soon. I also had another Neopets account for like five minutes so that didn’t last long.

In February, I don’t really think I got up to much, I had another drag show and obviously more uni work, my boyfriend and I didn’t even really celebrate Valentine’s Day because I had pole class haha. So I guess it was a quiet month.

In March I had my first outing with the pole class for drinks to celebrate our one year anniversary of pole. We are all very busy outside of class so it was hard to find a day when we were all free. It was super fun and it was nice to see everyone outside of class and fully clothed lol.

Also in March my friend Jasmine came for a visit which was great. I don’t see her much but I always enjoy when I get to see her. I enjoyed when we went out in March because I had bought knee-high boots for the occasion so all of us would be matching. Some say tacky, but we say stylish.

Other highlights in March were that I got a new phone, I was saying goodbye to my iPhone and hello to Android once more. I liked my stint in the iPhone world but am glad to have an Android phone again.

I also got my first ever Erin Condren planner and I was super excited about that because ever since stumbling upon the planner community I felt like it was the planner for me, plus I love sticker spreads. They have been fun to create over the last year. I’m not yet up to having a sticker spread for every week, I just keep it to special occasions but that could change in the next year lol.

In April, uni was beginning to wind down I had mostly finished classes but our dissertation deadline was looming, so there was a lot of work that needed to be done.

I also finally got to see Adore Delano perform live. She was one of the drag queens I had always wanted to see perform and she did not disappoint, I had a great time. I have a whole backstory as to how she was supposed to be the first drag queen I ever saw live but she cancelled that tour date haha but three years later I made it to see her and I’m not mad about it.

Towards the end of April we had another pole get together which was a great stress reliever, it was two days before my dissertation was due but I decided I definitely needed the night off. Plus, I knew I wasn’t going to pull off something miraculous towards the end, I had accepted that I had done most of the work and that I should just work on finishing my write up the last few days.

After handing in my dissertation I felt a lot of relief but sadly I couldn’t rest yet because I had exams in May. At this point I was starting to feel a little burnt out. But I had to push through to the very end, it wasn’t easy but revision was a little better than my disseration, mainly because I was just revising things I already learnt, rather than having to pull a whole project off from scratch.

After exams, it was finally time to start off my last summer ever. I spent most of the first couple weeks off, sleeping and playing Sims – typical behaviour of me really.

Then towards the end of May me and my brother decided to book last minute tickets to see BlackPink in Manchester. It was going to be my first KPop concert since KCon New York three years ago and I am so glad we decided to go. I only started listening to BlackPink music this year but it was amazing to see them live. It was a fun trip and surprisingly not as expensive as we thought it was going to be so it was totally worth it.

June can be summed up by three things: sleep, Sims and reading. I had gotten into reading again last year with the help of GoodReads and I wanted to continue reading on this year. But because of university I didn’t have much time to read but in June I ended up reading a lot. It seems I swapped out Grey’s Anatomy for a book series and I ended up reading the most books in a month I think I’ve ever read.

I also got back into making Sims YouTube videos, I didn’t make many videos on my main channel but I was playing Sims so much that it didn’t feel like too much of a stretch to make some videos as well.

Then at the end of June I celebrated my 22nd birthday. This time there was no Taylor Swift concert but I still got to spend the night with my friends and have fun.

The week after my birthday was graduation, I kind of knew what to expect as my boyfriend graduated the year before but this time it was my turn. It felt weird having to put on the graduation gown and everything but at the same time it felt right. Looking back it kind of seemed like the graduation scene in a movie, when you see your friends after getting your diplomas and everything. It was a big day and luckily I made it across the stage without falling so all was well.

July was spent in a similar fashion to June where I was playing Sims, reading and enjoying all the free time. I was going to start work at the end of the month so I had to make the most of it.

At the end of July I started my job, it is in the same place where I did my university placement so I wasn’t too worried about starting. However this time, I was joining as part of the graduate program and so had to go through some training first.

The training lasted a month and a half and I was stuck in the Hilton during the whole time. It was fine in the beginning but over time it got a little depressing because the room had no windows. At least I wasn’t alone, I met all the new graduates joining us and made some friends. We started going out every Friday for drinks after training and that was nice, it was good to get out of the Hilton and have some bonding time.

Outside of work, I was maintaining my reading and playing a bunch of Sims – are we sensing a theme of what I do with my free time?

In September, I finished my training and started work properly. I rejoined the team I was on during placement so luckily I had some kind of idea what was going on.

I was also settling into living with my boyfriend during September. It was a big step for us but at the same time I wasn’t too worried about it. He got his own place at the start of the year when I had been living at uni so when I finished uni he asked me to move in with him. Originally I wasn’t planning to, I thought I should live on my own for a bit but at the same time I did want to live with him.

And so we are still living together now. I did think it would be weird to live with him in the beginning, I guess because it’s different than living with a flatmate. Mainly because you share a bed and aren’t used to your significant other around all the time. But I think we’ve made it work quite well.

October was spent working, but also going out with my friends which was great, we only get together like once every few months or something but in October we saw each other quite frequently with Halloween and other things so that was fun.

For Halloween, we went to this Disney themed costume night and I had big plans for my costume but in reality it was just a dalmation cape haha. I wanted a cool wig to go with it but sadly the wig I ordered ended up being terrible. I think if I were to do something like that again I would definitely need one of those fancy drag queen wigs. If only I could afford it…

At the end of October I also went to Liverpool with my mum, sisters and my niece for my niece’s 16th birthday. This was our first ever kind of family vacation so I was nervous about how it might go but it was actually a good time. I got to spend time with the family and visit somewhere I’ve never been before, it might not be as exciting as going outside the UK but I still had a good time. You can find out more about it in the Liverpool blog post I made.

Then a couple of weeks later I went to London with my boyfriend to see Dear Evan Hansen – we had planned to do this before I had the trip with my family planned, it just happened they were close together haha. The time away with my boyfriend was great, even though we live together now it was still nice to have proper one on one time together. At the time we were both busy with work and other things so to have time off was nice.

Dear Evan Hansen was nothing short of amazing. I cried so much and I wasn’t expecting to haha. Again, if you want to know more about that trip you can check out my London blog post.

Since this has been the second year in a row my boyfriend and I have went to London for a West End show I wonder what we will go and see next…Whatever it is I will be sure to keep you posted. If you want to know more about my London trip then check out this blog post.

The rest of November was spent scrambling to get Christmas presents and also Christmas decorations. This was the first year where my boyfriend and I would have to get Christmas decorations of our own, and who knew they would be so expensive? At least now we have them we won’t have to buy them again.

I also decided to start playing the 100 Baby Challenge on the Sims because why not? I never really keep save games in the Sims but I figured with something like this, I can always go back to it. It’s actually kind of fun and it keeps you busy with all the Sims, normally I only ever have one Sim in my household so to always have eight is crazy haha.

In December we decorated our place and that was super cute, to see the whole place made up. Plus it had been a while since I had actually decorated for Christmas, the past few years I have been so busy that mum has just decorated the house on her own. So it was nice to be able to decorate again.

Also in December I enjoyed a lot of time just chilling out and spending time with friends and family. You know, the norm.

And so that brings us to the end of my 2019! I always say this but this has definitely been a crazy year for me. I’ve gone through a huge transition with leaving uni to join the life of a working adult and so far it’s going okay. I remember when I was writing about how nervous I was about leaving secondary school to go to uni but that doesn’t even compare to leaving uni and starting a job.

I guess I was lucky in that I kind of already knew what my job was going to be, but I think I’m still adjusting to everything. I mean this year, 2020, will be my first full year as a working girl. I won’t have long breaks off like I used to with uni because I only get a certain amount of days to take off a year. It will be weird. But at the same time I’ll have money to do things which is nice.

Anyway, it will be interesting to see where 2020 will take me. I have no big plans for the year except probably dedicating my life to Animal Crossing: New Horizons (which I can’t believe I’m only mentioning right now omg). It was supposed to be released in 2019 but that didn’t happen so I’m counting down the days until it’s released!

So I hope the New Year has been treating you well so far, and if not well we still have another 11 and a half months to turn it around so let’s see where we end up.

~ Courtney x

Would I Lie To You? By Cecily von Ziegesar Review

New year, same book series. I have just finished the 10th book in the series and we only have three left…and one parody and then the spin offs haha but I think I’ll stick with the main series and then move on to other things.

So yeah, this book was…okay, though I was Googling to find out how many books I had left and it looks like the previous book, this one and the next one were all written by a ghostwriter. Which might explain why I am not enjoying them as much, something about them makes them less interesting than before.

I also tried to look up why they were ghostwritten but nothing really comes up when I search it so who knows. But that being said Cecily von Ziezegar does come back for the last two books which are a prequel and a sequel so we see what happens.

So yeah anyway this book. I don’t know what about it made it seem shorter than the others but it just was. Which meant the storylines were kind of weak.

Let’s start with Dan again because his story is kind of funny. So Dan is still working at his bookstore and ignoring Vanessa and all that but he makes friends with a new coworker who wants to hold a literary salon because ya know…books.

They selectively choose people to attend through an application process and the night arrives and Dan gets super drunk on absinthe and decides to make out with his new coworker Greg. He has a little freakout before just announcing to Jenny and himself that he is gay lol. Like okay Dan, why not. He goes through so many different phases in life why not let this be one of them.

I didn’t see this coming for him and honestly it’s kind of terrible. On the bright side he and Vanessa didn’t get back together for five minutes and break up again without saying words to each other.

Though that might have had something to do with Vanessa going off to the Hamptons because her babysitting job was taking her there. She lasted there about five minutes and then she realised she hated it and was lonely so she goes to a party in search of Blair and Serena, some friendly faces.

Only to discover the girls are nowhere to be found but it’s okay because she has become a fashion muse and ditches babysitting for that. Not really sure if she actually told anyone she was quitting or just never went back but yeah, that happened.

The fashion muse thing also only lasts for five minutes after Bailey Winter catches Vanessa in his sacred birdhouse and says she can’t film in there, however she did it anyway. Plus she felt kind of restricted in Bailey’s home and ended up just going back to the city, where she found out about Dan being gay possibly and that’s where we leave it for Vanessa. Wondering around aimlessly and not really sure what she’s doing – very much a mood.

Also side note we heard from Jenny a little bit in this book. She sent Dan some letters so at least we know she’s enjoying her summer.

Moving on down to Serena and Blair, they were Bailey Winter’s original muses and Bailey had hired fake European lookalikes to be the models for his campaign (no idea why he couldn’t use the real B and S but okay). Sadly the two could not get along with their lookalikes as B was convinced the fakes were up to something.

She got her revenge on them anyway in true Blair fashion. S just went along with it because she just wanted to have a fun carefree summer with her BFF. Though to be honest I they kept acting like these fake girls were up to something super sinister but all I know is they were just putting hair removal cream in shampoo which is, kind of tame and also boring.

Anyway, once the girls were done with their dopplegangers, they fled and ran into everyone’s favourite stoner Nate Archibald who happened to live next door.

Nate was still working for the Coach, but he was out of town and Nate was being harrassed by his wife, so it was a no brainer for him to hit the road once B and S showed up.

The three of them planned to go to the city and go sailing on the Archibald family boat but once getting to the city they find that Nate’s dad has taken the boat elsewhere.

While crashing at Serena’s apartment, S realises something weird is going on with Nate and Blair. Of course something is going on between them because there’s always something.

Basically Nate realises he just really wants to be with Blair because he believes their soulmates. Blair also wouldn’t hate being back with Nate either. And Serena is left feeling like a third wheel.

Worse than that, it’s Serena’s birthday. So before the gang hit the road on the search for the Archibald boat they stop to visit Serena’s brother Erik who has thrown a party for S’s birthday. Cute.

Sadly S does not enjoy a party that consists of all Erik’s friends and like six girls. Bummer. Not to mention she saw Blair and Nate on the stairs and Nate confessed he finally loved Blair. Now Serena is feeling super left out.

She kind of just goes away to pout and figure out how she’s feeling and she discovers that maybe she’s in love with Nate and should tell him. Even though her best friend just admitted she loves Nate and he loves her back. So she writes a letter and leaves it for him in the glovebox of his car.

I’m kind of surprised that Serena wasn’t a fan of the party Erik had. I feel like she usually can make the best of every situation. Plus her leaving a guy that once loved her and running away sounds just like her but using him to distract her from Nate and Blair – seems again weird for her.

I guess she just doesn’t want to lose her friends again to their bubble and be third wheeling at Yale. At the same time just because your friends are telling each other they love you, that doesn’t mean you just think like “maybe I love Nate too”. Like we established that you guys would always be in each other’s lives but not romantically. So…yeah I see a flaw.

As for the lovebirds, they headed out early, ditching S on her birthday (kind of rude), in search of the Archibald boat. While they are on the road they decide to go for a pitstop and this is where Nate is reminded of the consequences of ditching the Coach.

He gets a voicemail and the Coach is not happy about him ditching or smoking weed on the job. Naturally. So does this mean that Nate won’t actually graduate? Not that he cares in the moment when he’s got the girl but it would be interesting if he didn’t.

Then there’s B who discovered Serena’s letter in the car. Yikes. I guess those two aren’t BFFs anymore. It’s never good to find a letter addressed to your on-again off-again boyfriend from your best friend telling him she loves him. So she does the rational thing and tears up the letter before Nate sees it and the wind carries it away.

At around this same time Serena has come to her senses and wants to take the letter back but sadly discovers that Nate and Blair have already gone.

And that is where we end it.

Again, nothing great to be honest. The Dan is gay thing was kind of funny though.

Also I never expected Vanessa to be the type to just give up her film making to be a babysitter? Plus I never believed she would also quite the fashion muse thing so quick but I guess it’s not the kind of film she likes to make.

As for this love triangle of Nate, Blair and Serena…well I would have preferred if Serena had stayed out of it haha. I mean I guess without her there’s no drama but realistically Blair and Nate would have found something else to fight over sooner or later.

But yeah, I guess we see where we go from here. I think the next book is technically the proper end to the series, with the next two books being add-ons after that so I’m interested to see where it ends. Like I said I had a feeling it would end once everyone got into college, which is why they stretched this summer out for two whole books, but I’m hoping summer ends in the next book because it’s kind of boring.

Before I gear up to read the last few books of the series I think I’ll take a break and read something else. It seems to be my pattern to read three Gossip Girl books and something else so, why break that now. But don’t worry, I’ll be back with our favourite Upper East Siders before you know it.

~ Courtney x